JP Walker Talks About His Existential Crisis | How therapy got him through snowboarding related PTSD
JP Walker certainly is a legend in snowboarding, but if you’re keeping track he’s also done some pretty questionable things. Hitting street rails in hoodies with the sleeves cut off for one thing. This interview with SNOWBOARD MAG gets in there real deep and is a great read whether you’re a lover or a hater.
It’s the first shot for 2032 and I almost couldn’t even do it. I was basically crying the night before like I’m done. Just mentally finished. I had no confidence. I had nothing. It took getting in front of the camera to realize how shook I was from that accident. Full PTSD.
I got on a Skype call with Alan Goldberg, a sports psychologist. He kind of got me through the winter and then that next summer. I was with him about once a week to work through the PTSD I had about the whole scenario. All the pressure for the 2032 thing, 20th part, and wanting to live up to my previous standards. I’m telling him all this and he’s like, “How old are you?” “I’m 40.” He’s like, “Yeah, you’re fucking 40. You’re human.” When someone actually puts it in perspective for you, it’s an eye opener. I bawled my face off trying to get through this whole scenario of breaking my foot. It wasn’t just a foot thing. It came down to how everything adds up. I’ve obviously been hurt a lot of times, but finally it gets to a certain point where your body doesn’t want to do that anymore and [your mind] gets scared. I basically had a fucking meltdown. That’s some pretty major shit that happened with me. It’s not like I’m trying to keep it secret that I had to go see a shrink about this. I think it happens to a lot of people. It’s just a normal thing for a snowboarder who does the types of things. You do get hurt a lot, especially if you’re doing it for a long time. Not only getting hurt, but putting yourself in scary situations on the daily.